Back on My Grind

A small message to all of my lovely doubters. You think you've taken me down a notch? Think that you've made me stumble?! HAH! I'll let Eminem talk to you on that one

"And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now"

So, to those who have ever doubted what I have done, am doing now, or will do...just watch. I've had enough of being the guy people walked over. I'll still be me, but not going to be the guy that people just treat like dirt because they think they can. I'm going to be Matt Eason, and that's it

Song of the day: "Not Afraid"-Eminem

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s

(ya, I'm a fan of Eminem...but more his recent stuff)

PS: Excited to finish downloading the movie "The Town", starring Ben Affleck and company. I think it'll be a great one. Now for the silly internet to make the download faster haha

Details in the Fabric

So, I got two things to post on

1) I'm sorry people. I posted my feelings on here about a bad breakup and y'all don't deserve that. People who stumble upon my blog want to read my life story, not just the hurt. I wrote a LOT of things down when it all went to hell, but all of it probably won't be hitting the blog since it's way too dark for my liking. So, if you don't see it, I'm sorry. But, we'll see what happens. I've got many loyal friends that have kept my head up and thanks to them I'm moving forward with my life

2) December 17th, 2010. I turned 22 years old, and had an awesome night. While some of my friends didn't come who said they would, it was still a fun night. In the grand scheme of things it was a great night with great friends

Song of the day: "Details in the Fabric"-Jason Mraz and James Morrison

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4PRNgXol0o

(this is a live version, but I enjoy it...even if it's from a cell phone camera)

Explosives set to doo-whop melodies

So, this is what I get for being so deeply into a person that I set myself up for failure...I get broken up by a text message....I get an awkward breakup because I go from being so into this girl to having her totally destroy my world in mere HOURS! I seriously am starting to question if I will ever have a long lasting relationship these days...but, hey, it's really not up to me. So, for the time being I'm enjoying just living life and finding new ways to move on with my life. But, for the time being, Bruno Mars can sing my heartache in his lovely song, titled, "Grenade"

Which, by the way, if you have not heard it, you've either been living under a rock, or just don't like popular music. Either way, I'm disappointed in you for it...ya, you!

Song of the day: "Grenade"-Bruno Mars

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR6iYWJxHqs

"And I tell her every day..."

Bruno Mars, you are a genius! To write songs that are so great, and to just be able to shrug and have the talent just ooze out is pretty awesome!

Things with Carrie are going great. I can't believe that someone makes me as happy as she makes me on a daily basis. It's like I almost have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming with eyes wide open some times. But, my eyes stay closed when she's falling asleep in my arms, but open just to steal a glance at her as she is falling asleep. I can't imagine how the last few weeks would be if I hadn't started talking to and eventually dating her. She is really amazing, and I love to tell her every day just how amazing she is. To say that I enjoy every second with her is a major understatement.

Song of the day: "Just the way you are"(Remix)-Bruno Mars feat. Lupe Fiasco

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEFxQpdjuFw&feature=channel

B.o.B.

One of the few rappers I will listen to is B.oB. Now, most people know him from his collaborations, but the songs he has where he is by himself aren't too bad!

Now, here comes the fun part. The last few weeks have been pretty awesome for me. Add in the fact that South Carolina is now the SEC East champ in football and....wait, we won the SEC EAST?! Oh ya, we did do that!

But, the best part of the last few weeks is what happened November 14th. But, I'll keep you guys wondering for a bit!

Writing piece on Wednesday, so please leave a word and I'll work a paragraph out of it

Thanks!

Song of the day: "Nothing on you"-B.o.B feat Bruno Mars

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8PTDv_szmL0&feature=related

New Found Glory

Know those days when you find a band you used to love, but forgot all about? And then, you stumble on them when listening to your iPod on shuffle? Well, count the guys of New Found Glory in that category for me this week/weekend. I've enjoyed listening to some of their older stuff that I haven't heard (thanks YouTube!)

So, I decided to start sharing writing that I come up with during the week. My "thing" is to take a word I've used, and try to create some short, three or four sentence writing piece designed around that word or thought. Today, I'm writing on the word "Serenity", which is ironically one of my favorite movies.

"They sat alone on the porch, taking in the autumn air. The pure serenity of the moment left him breathless. He sat and tried to swallow air, something to slow his heart down as the world slowed around him. Feeling her sitting next to him, warming his very soul, was something that he had wanted for a while. Now, being in the moment, he was as scared as a child who had done something wrong. Yet, seeing how beautiful she looked in that moment, everything began to feel right in the world around him"

So, give me thoughts people! I'm trying to flex my writing muscle so I can get my head right. That, and it helps with papers!

Song of the day: "It's Not Your Fault"-New Found Glory

http://www.youtube.com/user/NewFoundGloryVEVO#p/u/6/PavCSK_gJX8

(I dig the live version more)

Post-Post-Post.....POST

Ok, I haven't really even touched this site in a while. But, I'm a working, starving, college kid!

Update on some things for all of my lovely readers!

• Life is CRAZY!! I can't believe how much stuff I have to do, yet have so long to do it. I keep procrastinating with so many things I'm starting to doubt myself. But hey, no better time than the present to get work done....right?
• Work, work, work. I feel like I'm actually not dreading work as much since I only work three nights a week
• I'm really excited for what the future holds for me people. I feel like I got almost a steroid shot from going through all of the meetings and conferences this semester. Almost a re-purposing of everything

So, what's next? Well, I'm thinking that maybe I should get back into writing. Gives me a chance to flex my literary muscle. That and maybe start getting into writing more of a story I started a few years back. The main idea is following the story of a man stuck in a apocalyptic situation. The worst part? He's faced with having to make choices of who lives or dies in his party of people. Drawing inspiration from Stephen King, Mass Effect (yes, video game), and also the movie 2012 to get ideas. No zombies or vampires here, just cataclysmic natural events. Here's a piece

"...he sat there, pondering his life. The pressure of everything was starting to break his will, starting to make him wonder what he should do. 'So easy, so easy' he muttered to himself, rocking back and forth, 'nobody will miss one less person in this crazy shit....one person, who will miss one person?'"

Strong? Better believe it! But, I feel like this will be awesome if I can harness my ideas and just go for it. Lets see what happens

Song of the day: "Stay Awake"-All Time Low

"Welcome back...."

So, I realized that it has been far too long since I have posted anything. I religiously even update my Twitter account, but have not posted anything for anyone here on Blogspot since my last entry. I have been working on some big things lately, and with work picking up, it's hard for me to get on here and blog about my life.

But, alas, I have a plan! I'll try to blog at least two...maybe THREE...times a week. Probably will be a Monday and Friday kind of deal, with maybe Wednesday added in for good measure. Monday will be a recap of the weekend's events, with probably Friday being a recap of the week and a precursor for the weekend upcoming. Now, Wednesday would probably be something to touch on topics that interest me or interest my readers. But, that would require people to email me or leave comments. Let's see what happens

But, here's a list of things I've been working on:

1. Working my butt off at Ruby Tuesday
2. Working on ideas for videos for the YouTube page
   
3. Gamecock football games
   
4. Not going broke from all of the previous ventures
   
5. And FINALLY..... trying to survive this lovely thing we call life....and college
   

So, my faithful readers of this little bloggity. Be patient, as I try to keep everyone involved and also not lose my mind. Because, a mind is a terrible thing to waste, and I intend to keep mine. Unless, someone offers me millions for part of my brain, and knowing my cash strapped self, I'd sell some in a heartbeat.

Song of the day: "Jamie All Over"-Mayday Parade

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZaK37dheCM&ob=nb_av2e

(one of my favorite videos ever....great group of guys, and they have fun with their music, almost a lost art these days with bands)

PS: To quickly touch on that previous entry, it was posted in angst about a failed attempt at a relationship with a girl that I totally misread. I now see the error in my ways with her, as I was completely incorrect in trying to "woo her" (I think that's a way to put it) and put all my cards out too fast.

I Don't Deserve You...

I don't deserve you beautiful. I don't deserve someone that is so beautiful that my heart just melts when you walk by. I don't deserve to be so lucky to hold you in my arms and have you fall asleep with your head on my chest. I don't deserve having the chance to just hold you and kiss you as the whole world slows down. I don't deserve that feeling of my heart fluttering when you tell me that you like me and that you are wanting to take a chance on being more than "just friends" or "talking"....

But....also...

I don't deserve you not talking to me for almost a week at a time. I don't deserve getting texts from you when you're drunk, telling me how much you miss me and want me near you. I don't deserve you then ignoring me when I try to get back with you about what you drunk texted me about. I don't deserve you telling me all about everything going on at school, but not giving two cents about how you left me high and dry...

Frankly my dear, I don't deserve you....at all

Haiti Day 8

(I so told everyone I would post this on Monday but I had a lot of stuff come up so plans got changed....so, here is the final entry)

"Today was a day that I will always remember. While we were happy to headed back home to our families, everything inside of me screamed, 'Don't go! You're nowhere near done yet!' But I felt God telling me that while my time was done in Haiti for this trip, that I needed to take what I learned and bring it back home to South Carolina. I prayed as I got ready and then on the bus to the airport that God would continue to work through MOH and make continue to advance God's kingdom in this amazing country.

A lot of people told me before I came that Haiti was, 'devastated, broken, savage, dirty....etc, etc, etc.' Well, all I have to say to that is this...'broken but beautiful!' This country was brought to it's knees by the earthquake and God is bringing them back from it and doing it His way and by no other way...man, that inspires me to even think that! God is doing big things, and I hope that He allows me to return to Haiti and keep working with MOH"

Haiti Day 7

(Quick note, I will be posting the final entry on Monday August 16th as the next two days will be filled with way too much stuff for me to sit down and fully type out the final entry...thanks for reading guys!)

"Today served as an effective 'send-off' for our trip to Haiti. We got to spend the day with all the other teams at a beach called 'Wahoo Bay'. It's amazing how a country where things are so broken and full of despair, that a beach with that much beauty exists for everyone. I thought the waterfall was awesome, but this beach knocked it out the park. Heck, I think Myrtle Beach combined with all the spots in Florida I've seen couldn't come close to this! Water as clear as glass, and it was so needed

One of the highlights, minus an awesome lunch, was going snorkeling for an hour a bay about ten minutes away. Here comes the kicker....only $5! How crazy is that?! In America snorkeling for even 10 minutes is more than that. But in Haiti, you can go snorkeling for an hour, get the mask, snorkel, and flippers (sad, no flippers for me as I have huge feet) for that five dollars! I loved getting the chance to swim around in such clear water and just enjoy the reef and be amazed at God's creation. The cool part was letting Matt Keely go. He wanted to so bad but had spent a lot of his money on trinkets and didn't have enough. But, I couldn't go and then let him not go, so I did what I felt was needed, I spotted him. I think it was worth it!"

Haiti Day 6

"After such a whirlwind day yesterday, I was curious as to what God was going to have us do today. But, it seemed like things were taken back a notch. We worked through a city, cleaning up trash on the street. Our guide/interpreter, "Wiki", actually told the Haitians in the street (in Creole of course) 'look, white people are coming to pick up your trash!' I guess that's meant to be a jab of sorts at them for putting their trash down and not caring really. But one thing I noticed was that a lot of the trash was little packages that said 'bon dlo'. After asking Wiki what they meant he told me it meant 'good water.' It's sad they were reduced to having to get clean water from a small little pouch and that was it for a lot of people we saw....breaks my heart when I have water from at least 6 different sources in my house to drink and it's all clean

After our trash run, we went to a church and painted the inside of a school that they had built for under privileged kids. I could see it a mile away, but with our team and paint...bad things normally happen. I decided to paint with the Harvest crew so that way I could avoid getting paint on me. I luckily walked away primarily unscathed but it was definetely a fun experience. The cool part was hanging out with the kids during breaks and just getting to play with them and see them smile. I've learned that a smile can be universal...something no matter the language can show that you care and can make things all right. Well, that and tickling a child you catch! God is showing me that maybe showing more compassion and being open isn't so bad as I once thought"

Haiti Day 5

"Today was a day of firsts and a day full of beautiful compassion. Not too long after eating breakfast Jeremy (one of the interns) came up to us and asked if our team and one of the others wanted to go on 'an adventure' to a bay and check out some old boats. We obviously agreed, since honestly, who wouldn't turn down an adventure like that? We drove to this bay and were able to check out these two boats. One was being used as a way to create scrap parts and the other where the crew was stationed. It was awesome to just sit there in the bay and let everything just soak in. It was also cool to speak with the captain of the boat and hear about his life experiences. The really cool part was listening to him tell us in fluent Spanish how he studied Spanish in Cuba so he could become a captain in the Caribbean.

And here comes another first, and also the compassion. Today we went to a village in Cabaret, maybe twenty minutes away from our compound. We were only told we would go on a "River Walk" and then go to an orphanage. Little did I know that a little girl was there, ready to change the way I see the world around me. All along the River Walk I kept praying in my head that God would let me just shine His light in some way to the children I was going to meet in that orphanage.

Once we got to the orphanage, I was greeted by Mandy, one of the members of another team (from Miami, FLA) and she basically handed off a small little girl to me and told me, 'hold her, here's her stuffed kitty, and here's her other toys!' Those who know me know that I'm good with kids...just older ones. But holding this little girl, maybe a little over a year old, the world slowed down. After holding her for mere moments I started to feel like I was almost overheating. Even one of our team members told me later I looked like I was dehydrating.

Turns out, the little girl was just running a fever and was burning up so much that her heat was transferring to me and making me sweat like nothing else. But I kept a grip on her and finally she went to sleep in my arms. I can't tell you how beautiful it was to see this girl asleep on my chest, just holding on and finally feeling safe with me. I never wanted to let her go, but sadly I had to once we left. I never got her name, but I know the hole she has left in my heart for the rest of my days on this Earth"

Haiti Day 4

"It seems to me that during this trip that God loves to push my limits, and then show me that how His pushing me is working to bring Him glory. One example is while laying down more of the sidewalk today, and starting to feel the heat pressing down on us. We would break, but the kids from School of Hope would come over and talk with us, and it would make everything worth it. It's awesome to see how thankful everyone is for us putting such a simple thing as a sidewalk in.

One of the coolest parts of Haiti so far was going to a big waterfall in the mountains. The area surrounding it was full of people, and it really didn't give away the usual allure that one would think of with a waterfall, but when we saw it, it was awesome! It was a welcome idea to just let the water rush over us and relax in God's creation

I've said it before, but worship with the Haitian church is an awesome experience. We had a short worship session with them tonight, and I couldn't help but be overcome by the people that showed. It wasn't as packed as Sunday, but there were still a lot of people there to experience it. I loved hearing different songs that I've known in English being sung in Creole and I pick it up because of the instrumental leads and such. But it was awesome to worship God with them, since the language barrier wasn't too bad. The best part is that we were worshiping the exact same God as them. How cool is that?

Quick side note, after the service we went to check and see if the mixer team had laid concrete down where we had built the "bays" for it. Coolest part, was seeing little kids running down the sidewalk playing and laughing. Man, it's worth it seeing their faces and playing on it

PS: I cried.....again"

Haiti Day 3

"Today was the start of our 'on site construction projects'. We helped lay down cement for a sidewalk at the Mission of Hope compound. Now, this sounds easy, but it's really not. A lot of work went into this, especially with laying down all of the foundation in exact ways so that we could make sure to not be off on our mark at all. But John took charge and was able to coordinate our team efficiently. It's a blessing to have someone who can be a 'supervisor' on our team to help us with this project!

After working on the project and lunch, we went to a small village for a short 'vbs'. Frankly, all our team did was hang out with kids. And for me, that was enough. Sam had an eye opening experience where a child explained to him that his whole family was dead and he was all alone. That rocked me to my core. Many days growing up I wondered what it would be like to not have a family, but this boy was not having to wonder. I'm glad that God has blessed me with a family that loves me. The broken people in this country aren't ready to stop praising God though. It's starting to not hurt so much, but it's still breaking my heart to see this people worship God amidst all they've been through

After hearing Brad Johnson's testimony, I felt both empowered and convicted. MOH's idea for Haiti is a lot like Crossroads. Both of us use a "every man woman and child" approach, and our logos are eerily similar. I even joked to Sam, 'Did John Mark design stuff for MOH without telling us?!'. (He obviously did not catch said joke) The coolest part of the night was after the meeting and team games I got to talk with Matt K about some thing that had been going on around the team. It was awesome to be able to step in as a leader and to offer some experience to him. I felt like I was almost at home doing this. I can't wait to see what else God has in store for our team this week!"

Haiti Day 2

"Today we got up early! But, I had an odd feeling that God was about to show everyone on our team some things during the church service. Waking up at 5 am just to sit around for an hour and a half was a bit aggravating though. After we took a tour of the compound, we went to church with around 600 people, including all the teams and Haitians. I thought I had been to large church services, but this was huge! I enjoyed learning the lyrics but when the worship leader started speaking creole I got lost all over. But, he switched into English and welcomed all of the teams and to hear how excited the Haitians were to have us was amazing. I can't convey the feeling of being welcomed so much by the people of this country.

Being part of the worship team at church, I usually would look at the tech aspects of things and get so wrapped up in them. I started to do so in Haiti but then realized that they had an unbridled form of worship in that they worshiped Him with all they had and had no worries for possessions. I was taken away by the way they sang "Mighty to Save." Now, we've heard this song more times than anything. But, to hear the words "He rose and conquered the grave, Jesus conquered the grave" about knocked me on my butt. It wasn't the words, but how these people who are in a country so broken sang this song with so much conviction and really meant it. It was all I could do to not fall down and just cry from it all. By the way, I did cry, but not too much. I'm ready to hit the ground running here, so that way I can help to advance God's kingdom in Haiti. Because my God conquered the grave"

Haiti Day 1

I will be posting the journals I kept during my trip to Haiti on my blog for those who wish to enjoy them. These will be exactly what I wrote, down to the letter actually. Hope everyone enjoys them

Day 1

"I have no clue why, but I was signing "Walking in Memphis" right before we flew over Haiti. But once on the ground, nothing but fear blanketed me. I was overcome by fear, doubt, and anxiety, and almost a desire to turn around and run back to our plane. The hustle and bustle of customs was enough to make everything seem bigger than I could handle. But, God grabbed me and almost shook me reminded me that He was in control and had put me in this country for a reason. It was like He took my hand and told me in almost forceful tone, 'I put you here to advance my kingdom, I got this!'. Now, do I think God really said this? No, but it sure felt like it. Once we left the airport, it really hit me what we had landed into. Seeing multiple buildings that had been destroyed or were not repaired hurt me. But, then we saw some of the 'tent cities.' To imagine the heat from just sitting around but to see how these people lived just broke me from the start. But God continued to show me that He was there as we got to Mission of Hope and got acclimated. After taking some time before bed to read my bible I was comforted in reading Matthew 25:40, my focus verse for the week"

"I wanna be a billionaire..."

Great, great song. I definetely love the collab between Bruno Mars and Travie McCoy a lot. Plus, the beat is great for a summer anthem

As of now, not much to report here. Just working, working, and working some more. Plus, add in raising funds for Haiti....things be crazy up in here! Here's a play by play of what's gone on in the last few days

• Friday: Cleaned up house and then worked till close
• Saturday: Signed a lease for a place out at UOaks, worked with Mom all day, then relaxed with family
• Sunday: Church with family, cleaned up my room, and then had more family time

Today, pretty much a relaxed and lazy kind of day. Just love enjoying life and not having to worry a lot about everything that's going on. Now to just go raise the funds for Haiti and get that taken care of!

Song of the day: "Billionaire"-Travie McCoy feat. Bruno Mars

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aRor905cCw

"Kilamanjaro!"

Ok, call me a dork, but hearing the name of a mountain being yelled during a video game is pretty hilarious all things being considered!

But now for the fun stuff. I'm still playing the waiting game with Blue Choice on whether or not my malaria meds are covered under insurance or not. Also, I have happy news to report...NO MORE MIKE AT WORK!! Mike is leaving to go be the GM at another Ruby Tuesday. In his place we get back a guy that we had loved, even though he was with us only a short time, Matt. Side note, I've found that 9/10 times people with the name of Matt are pretty stinking awesome guys.

So, things are starting to turn around for those who are being patient. What throws me off is this...Josh told me to, "wait another week, and good things will come for those who have waited." Now, while Josh's dad is a district manager, something sounds funny about this. I'm really hoping it's not something too bad that would cost me money. I'm thinking that Doug (our GM now) will be gone and we will have someone new come in. Now, will it be Jeremy? The guy who was aggravating as nothing else? Or, will some miracle happen and we get Will back? I have no clue. But, I'm excited

Song of the day: "All The Right Moves"-OneRepublic

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrOeGCJdZe4

Patience

I blogged on strength before, but now comes the patience....

Patience is not one of my best qualities. Most of the people I know and love will tell you that if they could sum what I do not have in one word, patience would be at the top of that list. Lately, God has been working on my heart to test everything that I can be patient about. And I mean everything...

This last weekend has been a prime example of God working in my life to test my patience. He has done what ever is possible to test my patience with work, family, friends, and those at church.

1) Work: I have never had so many things go wrong in one kitchen with my orders in one night. The worst part? Seeing our food runner not care, our grill guy not care, and our culinary manager place bets on the steak temperature knowing it wasn't right. Trust me, not a fun sight...

2) Family: I love my family, to the end of my days I will always love them. But sometimes I push them, sometimes they push me. I won't go too into detail, but lately, I've been tested by God to have patience and remember they are human just like me...

3) Friends: My "friends" at USC were things that you could toss quotations around. They were mainly just people to have fun with, nothing too close to having any substantial friendship with. Worst part? Was me thinking these "friends" would last. Not a chance

4) Church: The last two days I have been worn out physically, which takes away from me mentally, which finally drains me spiritually as a result since I am weaker to the enemy

So, 1 is not that bad. With 2, I could definetely work on that. For 3 though, that is a almost closed case as a lot of people that I were "cool with at USC were not good for me. With 4, I really need to learn to control my feelings and also to realize what the real mission is for me at church and to avoid things that may detract from that

Song: "Marvelous Light"-Charlie Hall

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAQJKZJB-kE

"I Hate Needles!"

I really do hate needles. Even though I have two tattoos and give blood often I hate needles. I mainly just hate vaccinations and when they prick your finger. Other than that, I'm normally fine. I am talking about this since I just got a Hepatitis A vaccine earlier for my mission trip to Haiti. Right now, all I've got left to do is raise funds and get the malaria medication

But, in other news, it's almost summer! Yay for working nearly 40 hours a week and not having a life! But in retrospect, I work nearly 30-35 hours a week anyway so it's not a really big issue to be working that much considering I did it all of this semester

Song of the day: "New Dork"-Pantless Knights

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exmwSxv7XJI

(it's a spoof of "New York" by Jay Z, highlighting the "new dorks" who are now millionaires)

"Summer Breeze..."

Ah, I cannot wait till summer officially starts for me! I am done coming to USC till next fall after Friday when I go just to listen to three speeches for my SPCH 140 "final exam." But hey, you can't complain too much. It's at 2pm, and we only have to listen and review speeches and eat brownies. I believe that's a fair deal to me!

But, alas, all good feelings will come that day, and not before it. As I have two monster exams on Thursday. Bright and early at 9am is my Stat 110 exam. Then, at 2pm, is my Econ 224 exam. I plan to bust my butt studying for those finals. I plan to make the best grade I can in them and also make all A's in my other classes (SPCH, TSTM, and EDTE) so that things will balance out

After all of that, bring on the lake with lots of tubing, working 40 hours a week at RT, and Haiti! Did I mention I'm going to Haiti people? Oh ya, I am!

Song of the day: "In Too Deep"-Sum 41

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emGri7i8Y2Y

It's a pretty hilarious music video. One where the guys have said they got inspiration from Blink 182 to do it

"Oh I Wish That It Would Rain..."

Ok, don't think I'm in a bad mood by the title of the blog. I was just listening to some Temptations and that's what I put as the title of the blog since I was listening to it

Anyways, today has been a kind of crazy day so far. Waking up late, driving to class, and having only a vitamin water and a south beach bar for breakfast is not quite the greatest breakfast one should have. But hey, it's food so who's really complaining?

Right now I'm really just more excited to just get some stuff done before I go to Haiti. I am caught up on vaccinations, sent in passport application, and now just have to nail down funds and the malaria medication. But, I got faith that things will be taken care of

Song of the day: "I wish that it would rain"-Temptations

Some "fruit for thought"

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I strain to reach the end of the race and receive the prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us up to Heaven"

Philippians 3:13-14

A really great friend sent that to me today. I'm changing, and for the better. I spent many nights in prayer recently and found that all of the partying, drinking, and other bad habits I had gotten into last semester (and part of this one) had done nothing good for me. I think that this "change" is something has been forthcoming. Something that has been planned for a long time

The coolest part? Wanna know how much God loves me, you, and everyone who has struggles?

THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS MUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCH

Ok, crazy marquee aside....God does love us. Even with all my struggles I still felt God calling me to stop and to call to Him. I have finally had enough of the life not listening to God. I want to break myself...ok, not physically people!.....but break everything that I had considered part of my lifestyle that does not appease Him. This is part of my preparation for Haiti but also a way for me to get my life to the way He wants it. Pray I am able to listen to what He has in mind for my life. Now, in the coming months, and past that

Song of the day: "Heart of Worship"-Matt Redman

"Had Enough"

So, I love how Villanova keeps coming out with songs that I can just listen to over and over and keep playing. The best part? Is that they are a local band that hasn't made it big yet. It's not great for them since they are people who deserve to make it big. But, even when they do make it big, they won't ever forget where they came from, which is awesome! If you need any proof of such, just look at my last post and watch their performance where the bass player interrupts the song to thank everyone

Also, I'm thinking about getting another tattoo this summer. Potentially before Haiti but who knows. I was thinking about getting "Kia Kaha" on my wrist or maybe even on my arm but that's not looking too good as of now. I would get it on my chest but since I have a hairy chest the upkeep would be extremely hard. A friend suggested to get it between the two I have now but that could turn out to be really bad since I wouldn't know how to plan it. If anyone has a suggestion for what I should get, please help me out. But keep in mind, I can't have it show at work, and I also can't have anything that will cause issues for me once I start teaching

Song of the day: "Had Enough"-Villanova

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsxv54VLsCw

"SPEECH!"

I love my speech class. I mainly getting up in front of the class and just speaking and letting everything just flow. The best part I think will be the persuasive speech since I will be able to really get into it thanks to it being a topic I am very well versed in. YouTube vs Viacom lawsuit

In other news, I have worked 37 hours at work the last few days. My general manager will probably not let me go into overtime so that probably means I'm not going to work a lot the next two days. Yay!! I just hope it's not too late tonight so I can go hang out with my friends and also so I can get some sleep. My whole body is just screaming at me for working so stinkin' much the last few days

Song of the day:" Hard To Be Around Me"-Villanova

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjT-kt6WImU&feature=related

It's been a while...

So, I haven't quite stuck to the blog schedule that I had originally set out....sooooorry guys!

I've been running around trying to nail down as much as I can for my mission trip this summer so I can get it done now and not have so much to worry about later on this spring or summer. I spent most of yesterday afternoon doing the needed work to get my passport application in. Now, I just have to get the malaria pills nailed down and make sure I am up to date on vaccinations and such

I'm really finding that praying while doing preparations for this trip has helping me out tremendously since God helps to calm any nerves I ever have. Example, waiting in line for getting a copy of my birth certificate I was stressed while waiting. I then prayed for some patience and everything seemed to move faster and I was calmed down immediately

Song of the day: "Sweetly Broken"-Jeremy Riddle

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peBLD52nA-A&feature=related

"I was born by the river..."

You know those days when you just love to listen to some good soul music and try to relax your cares of life away? While not everyone likes soul music, I find it very comforting in times like this.

I had been on a good streak of things happening the way I wanted it but lately, it seems like things are starting to crash around me. I have faith that God has a plan in this madness, but it's hard to see right now. Hopefully, all of this stress is just a test to see how much faith I have. But, I will say this...it may suck how God is testing me right now, but I have faith that He will help me carry on

If you read my blogs, or just happen upon them, please do two things for me

1. Pray. Pray repeatedly that I can get past these days of stress and frustration and that I can listen to how God wants to use me
2. Listen to the "Song of the Day". I feel like it's got healing abilities

I love you guys. Everyone that reads my blogs, every one of yall is awesome in their own way. I hope to bring good news of the semester soon

Song of the day: "A Change is Gonna Come"-Mike Farris

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9YDGcgoe_E4

"If you have seen the movie 'Castaway'..."

Nobody is going to get that, but that's something that my economics professor said this morning trying to relate the material to us. I don't think she realizes that nobody pays attention in class. And I mean NOBODY!

It's just sad to watch her think someone is paying attention. Yet, we are just laughing at her thick accent, and also how much she just reads off the powerpoint. I cannot wait for this class to be over. Will I get a high grade? Probably not, but at least the class will be over...

Song of the day: "NJ Legion Iced Tea"-A Day To Remember

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R91uz1GQyvk

"By His Wounds..."

"By His wounds, by His wounds, we are healed"

Before I even get onto the topic at hand, let's just look at the significance of that one line. By the wounds of one man...one perfect, blameless, spotless man, we are healed. By the wounds of Christ, by the piercing of nails and the pain he suffered, we are healed. This concept used to blow my mind away since I always thought that a wound was something that damaged. Not something that would heal. But we look at it from a human perspective, where Christ was a man, but he was also the Son of God. Thus, the wounds caused by man to Christ healed our sins. It's complex at times, but I can't put into words how much I am thankful that Christ died for our sins

Now, last year I put into perspective Easter according to my thoughts. I looked at the perspective of the act and posted some nice imagery for those who couldn't understand how huge Christ saving us from our sins was. Well, this year I want to look more in depth at how significant Christ's love is for us. Mainly, I just wanted to dig more on the idea of how something so perfect, so amazing was beaten, tortured, and bruised with thorns....yet, He still told His father, our God, to forgive us all

Christ said as he slowly died, "forgive them..." To think of the torturing, bruising, and all the atrocities that happened to Jesus by men yet he told God to forgive us? I cannot begin to tell you how crazy that is to me sometimes. If someone were to punch you, would you pray for their forgiveness or would you fight back? Well, Jesus was tied to a cross, and forced to carry it while being whipped relentlessly. If you have something that may hurt your head, you take it off right? Jesus had a crown of thorns...let me repeat this...thorns...that were pushed into his skull till blood was drawn. And when Jesus was being nailed to the cross, as with everything that proceeded and followed, he could have easily stopped it all, killed his persecutors, and not even flinch

But Christ took this beating, this bruising, so we could have eternal life. I have been a Christian for years. Not quite as many as some of the people in my church, but I can bet that even those who are Christians for many years can grasp quite why Christ died for us. I stand amazed that Christ, the very son of God, came down to save us from our sins

I hope this can help to provide some reflection during this pivotal weekend. May you take in His word, and also listen to the song that contains that line I originally posted at the top of this blog

Song of the day: "By His Wounds"-Mac Powell and friends

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eui5WK-pkSA

A Small Disclaimer To All...

I am a lot of things....

• Stubborn
• Competitive
• Loyal
• Faithful
• Energetic

But, first and foremost, I am a family oriented guy. From my amazing parents I have the privilege and honor to be a big brother to one of the greatest individuals I know. I live for my family, even so much so that I had tattooed onto my left shoulder in an ancient script a symbol that means family. So, if you ever so happen to mess with my family, count yourself among swine, for you are low in my books. If you dare to mess with my sister, you are lower than anything in the world I can come up with. But if you dare make her cry, and stab her in the back as well, God help you and your soul....

Song of the night: "Soul Suckers"-Amos Lee

God of Wonders...

So, today was a great day. I was a little tired thanks to a lack of sleep but it was all good in the end!

I got to help out with the downtown campus of our church. I ran the ProPresenter and also helped to train one of the young guys on how to run everything. It was a different "feel" from St. Andrews campus since it was a lot smaller and only one service but I enjoyed it. It feels more of a mellowed out and kind of "chill" vibe. The band was acoustic style almost which I thoroughly enjoyed. But with communion being today, things got out of timing. But, I realize now, that God had timed it perfectly, and we just didn't know it

What I love about those situations is that even if you freak out for a second, you soon realize that there is a reason given by God to relax and know He is in control of everything. I've learned over years of working with technology in the church setting that when you freak out, things just get worse for you over time. But, keeping faith in the Lord and knowing that He plans out everything is awesome

For example, today instead of running a song as planned, we allowed for communion to run longer, and had a small prayer time. Was this planned? Not by the worship team or any of the people running the show. But God had it planned and He saw it fit for more prayer and more interaction with leaders and church members during communion

Overall, I'm just refreshed at how God is moving in this campus downtown. Is it as put together and "well oiled" as the St. Andrews one? No way! But you know what? I really think that God is doing something big through our church and it's campuses. I'm quite excited to see what happens in the near future

Song of the day: "Come Around"-Jimmy Needham

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2WvlP0Qh9A (lyrics video for the song)

"Living and loving life"

Lately I've been just loving everything that life has thrown at me....

• The weather has been amazing
• Work has gone well
• School has been good for me lately (well, minus Econ but that's a given considering our professor)
• I get to have fun playing pickup sports since the weather is getting nicer

Overall, spring has got to be one of my favorite seasons right now

Song of the day: "Carol of the Bells"-August Burns Red

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUId5f1-KbE

Time...

Time is a thing that moves ever so slowly these days for me. I can't complain since I love slow days but I also can't wait for this summer when I can just relax and not worry so much about school and such. But, it is volleyball season and I'm ready to play as much as I can with Ruby Tuesday people and get a good workout from it. Plus, it's another way to enjoy the AWESOME weather that we've been having. Just hope the rain doesn't ruin the day!

Song of the day: "Sittin' on the dock of the bay"-Sara Bareilles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=If_BpSJehSw

"Foldin' laundry all day long, foldin' laundry an' singin' this song"

You know you gotta love that title!

I used to hate folding laundry but it's actually...dare I say it?.... therapeutic right now. Add the nice weather outside and it's AWESOME! I open the window, plug iPod in, and now I get to just enjoy the awesome weather that God has given us lately. I'm hoping it stays like this for a long time. But, it may get even more hot! Which I'm not arguing against, as long as it's just heat with no rain!

Today I get to go to work, make money, and have fun with the friends I've made at work. I'm really loving working at Ruby Tuesday right now. The best part is going out after work with everyone to Ale House and just being goofballs and having fun with everyone. But what was cool about last night was seeing people I used to work with at Fatz. The funniest thing is seeing old people like that and they first thing they say is "have you lost weight?!" I then explain to them that the place I work at now has a lot more healthy food and also how I walk everywhere on campus and run at least a mile or two a day to keep my "figure"

Song of the day: "The Silence"-Mayday Parade

Video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEXiXaYhw6E&feature=related

Bloggin' for the heck of it?!

Why yes I am! It's such a beautiful day outside and I've recently redone the layout of this whole deal so why not change it?!

Today, the weather is awesome. I went running this morning thinking it would be cool but it was nearly 60 when I walked out the door. I quickly retreated back inside, took off my hoodie, and then went and ran a few miles. I can't help but just love how much the weather has gotten better over the last few days here in Columbia. I just wish I could go play volleyball or something before work but nobody to play right now is a small problem haha

But the biggest thing out of today was going and touring a couple apartments. Mainly Stadium Suites and I took a tour of Woodlands. Personally, I'm thinking Stadium Suites or University Oaks but as of now, Stadium has a small lead over Oaks but we'll see what happens

Song of the day: "Geek in the Pink"-Jason Mraz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sfi_PQEUQ-c

Just watch how much of a goober Jason Mraz is but it's still an awesome song

"I saw a leprechaun!"

Ok, so I maybe didn't see a leprechaun on the day that people use as a reason to drink Guinness, down lots of shots, and get stupid-face wasted. I did however, do this

• Almost slept through Economics until I decided to just record the professor and then go surf the web. I've studied the lecture so don't worry, I am studying
• Cleaned up my room
• Sat through some more speeches, a couple were good but one was great
• Checked out an apartment (University Oaks)
• Got my truck looked at...AGAIN
• Decided on place to fix my truck
• Hung with my friend and potential future roomie on his 21st....beverages were consumed yes

So, overall, a pretty decent day. Not a lot of "St. Patty's" around 5 Points last night because it was the middle of the week. Now, probably tonight-Saturday there will be more people but somebody *COUGHMECOUGH* has to work till close all three nights..... :(

But hey, I could use the money and I'm enjoying life so no worries! I do want to go back out again sometime in the next few days and enjoy some 5 Points. But mainly, I'm just glad to do laundry and have CLEAN CLOTHES! But, I'm also excited to be done with the truck ordeal and also to nail down where the heck I'll be living next fall. I'm thinking right now either

• Stadium Suites with a 3 or 4 bedroom package

OR

• University Oaks with a 3 or 4 bedroom package

But, we will see. So far it's just me and Ryan but I'm thinking my friend Trey is going to join us so we'll have enough for a 3br/3ba. I'd kinda like to get to a 4br/4ba but if we go with a 3 it won't be the end of the world for me

Song of the day: "Points of Authority"-Linkin Park (don't diss, it's a good "pump you up" song)

Word of the day?

So, another blogger wrote on a word and what it applied to their life. So, I've decided to try it myself. While the other one wrote on success, I've decided to write on a word that has meant a lot to me over the last few years, mainly since early 2008....strength

Many people look at me and think, "that's a big guy, bet he's strong"...pft, not as "strong" as he'd like to be would be more the word. I'm not the most physically gifted person in the world, but I make due with what I have. But, I think the "strength" that I have is rooted deeply in a God that loves me, a family that loves me, and friends that are a-mazing

First and foremost, I have strength in the fact that I have a God that sees my faults, and trust me people...there are many, and still loves me the same. I'm not going to go into a religious tangent but it's the truth. The love that is given by Him is so powerful it's almost like He's giving me power to do what I can and to never give up

Second, my family. I have a tattoo that says family in Sanskrit. If that's not enough indication how important my family is, you are blind and slightly "slow" my friends. I would take a bullet for everyone of my family. "Blood is thicker than water." Well folks, blood is thicker than anything. If you told me that someone is going to kill one of my family members unless I go jump off a bridge, my response would be, "ok, donde esta bridge-o?" (Bad Spanglish, I apologize) But, my family has been there, even when I didn't want God my family stuck to me and stayed with me till I've started to get my feet back up under me and standing on my own now. I'd especially like to thank my Dad. Now, a lot of people may not think he's the greatest ever, kinda mean. But it's necessary. Without him pushing me, prodding me, and also kicking (he tends to enjoy that) I would not be where I am today. He is like a small Winston Churchill in my mind, "we will never stop, we will never surrender."

My friends. They are few, and by few I mean I am VERY selective on who I let into my life. If you know pretty much everything there is to know about me, you are among the few in this world other than God Himself. But I cannot thank my friends enough that stick with me, and also those who push me to be who I am

So, am I "strong"? I would say I am since I have many that push my arms to move aside whatever stands in my path that may hinder me. I do not like obstacles, so I will take the strength given to me by those who are around me to push them out of the way and stand victorious

Song of the day: "Night Train"-Amos Lee

Change of plans...

So, I thought I was going to be in Conway by now but...things changed. Here's a small play by play of my morning

• Woke up to a text from Kirby (cousin for those who do not know) saying they (he and other cousin, Casey) won't be coming since someone hacked Casey's information and stole his $$. And it was a LOT of $$ taken. Poor Casey...
• Spent a lot of time on phone with insurance people after girl hit my truck yesterday. Fun stuff is, she hasn't called her insurance people yet to even file a claim. This is becoming more of a nuisance
• Oh, and not to mention, I'm not going to Conway for reason 1, part of reason 2, and mainly because of the weather...

But, I'm going to take this all and just try to close out my break as best as I can. Beating myself up and getting pissy will solve nothing at all. So, I will just enjoy my family a little more here in Irmo before going back to West Quad. There's always volleyball Friday!

Song of the day: "Have Faith In Me"-A Day To Remember

Trying to keep up!

So, I'm going to TRY (focus on the word try here folks) to make this back into a regularly scheduled deal. But, it would just be on Tuesdays and Thursdays with maybe a random post scattered every now and then. So far spring break has been exactly what the doctor ordered! I've really just enjoyed being able to sleep in my old bed and be able to just relax and let a lot of my cares just melt away. I'm going to be recharged for USC when I get back and I plan to hit the ground running and take my classes head on. Especially Stat and Econ since those are my two hardest classes

The biggest part of the break I am looking forward to is going to Conway tomorrow through Friday. I will be able to relax, hang out by the river, and see at least one of my cousins. Now, if one of the other ones show up, the more the merrier! If not, I'm perfectly fine with hanging out with Grandma who I love so much. But, as tradition states, I have to spend at least one sunrise on the dock listening to "Black River" by Amos Lee to kind of, "set the mood" if you want to go there. But mainly, it's my way to enjoy the scenery of the place that God has allowed to be my safe refuge for years

So, back to the blog thing! I will be making my best attempts to make this into a Tues-Thurs deal but I want COMMENTS! (not meaning to unleash the fury there, just kinda happened....perky for some odd reason this morning) Anyways....please leave some comments! That way I know people are reading and also I like feedback. And if I post anything from Sundays and yall see it and go, "Matt, that fits my life, thanks!", then my life will be complete just a little bit more

Song of the day: "Southern Girl"-Amos Lee

Watching Love Handles

Just enjoying The Love Handles practice some new stuff is pretty relaxing. It's also a blast to see all of the funny personalities the guys have. What's best is when somebody messes up and then everyone starts goofing off and laughing like it's nothing. Overall, it's something a tad therapeautic that I've been missing. It's really nice to have a Monday off to be able to hang out with these guys a bit. Plus, I'm getting a little sound tech training while I'm here

Plus, seeing two new band members practice is a plus as well. And it's always a riot to harass poor Joey haha

Song of the day: "You Had Me At Hello"-A Day To Remember

It's been a long time!

Goodness guys! I haven't blogged in what feels like years! Actually, I haven't blogged since January 31st to be specific. So, let me catch you up on some stuff

• Singles Awareness Weekend: IT SNOWED! Heck to the yaaaaaaah! I was so happy to see it snow. Just still kinda sad I had to miss the mass snowball fight on the Horseshoe
• I've finally locked down a roomie for next fall. It's my friend Ryan Studemeyer, a guy I've know for years. Only issue, is that we now have to see if his younger brother Jay is rooming with us. All this does is make us have to decide between Riverside Estates and Stadium Suites
• I've gotten back into music, especially "hardcore." You can blame Ryan for some of this but I feel more relaxed listening to it. I've gotten more addicted to A Day To Remember and bought more of their music recently to update my library.
• I've locked down plans for spring break, and I think it's going to be a great one. Conway, SC with my Grandma and hanging out. A lot of my buddies won't be chilling with their Grandmas over spring break but hey, it's a change of scene for me and I need it
• Work has been pretty great. Minus our new GM getting on my nerves it's awesome. Our new FOH (front of house manager) has kinda picked on me since a lot of my tables don't like their drinks but hey, it's not my fault haha

So, other than those things listed about work, I've been doing great since my last blog. I'm really learning to relax and let things just happen. Also, I've done better with things just rolling off my shoulder and not getting so worked up like I used to do

Song of the day: "Life for Hire"-A Day To Remember

Tired...

Tired....tired physically...tired mentally...tired spiritually...tired all over....body is tired...mind is tired...spirit is tired...I'm just tired

Tired of games, especially those where people love to go spread lies about me after I've tried to own up for my mistakes like a man but you go and talk about me like I'm not even human?.....I'm sorry guys but I'm frankly about ready to be done....done with a lot of games and a lot of people that are in my life. I'm going to say it now so you can document it if you want...I HATE THIS! I've tried for months to just stay away and not talk to those who play games but nothing ever works. I'm hoping to just shut myself away in my room today with Facing the Giants and a nice glass of Hawaiin Punch and find some inspiration to persevere right now

Just seems like life isn't going the way I want it. It's almost like I get in a good swing and everything today just falls out from underneath me and makes me just feel empty. Now, before any of yall try to go and say, "it's because you're mad you don't have a girlfriend....blah blah blah", it's not. It's me just sick and tired of pathetic, useless, juvenile, immature, and downright ignorant games!

If you even care about me, I just ask you pray. You can message me or leave a comment, that's fine. But all I ask for people is prayer. I'm going to need to pray and think myself, so yall praying for me will help as well

"The Last Something That Meant Anything"-Mayday Parade

Is anybody listening?

This isn't really a "post" per se, mainly it's just me asking if anyone is really reading these blogs anymore. I've considered changing over to doing "vlogs" on YouTube and just posting them on here as well but I'm not sure that anyone will follow them. Yall's input it very much appreciated so please don't hesitate to give it!

By the way, is it me or is it COLD in SC?! I thought I would enjoy it but it's ridiculously cold outside. Hopefully it gets warmer very soon

Song of the day: "Feel Good Drag"-Anberlin