Life can be a funny thing sometimes. Here I sit in my room at 11:17 at night alone after wasting more than 4 hours of my life playing on Facebook and watching Matrix movies when I should have been spending time with my mother who I'll be leaving in two days to move downtown. I can't help but feel like I let her down tonight since I wasted my time and energy with petty things like TV and my laptop when I have such a chance for quality time with her. My family is something that I profess to be really important to me yet I let the most important member of it just sit alone. Now, there are two kids in my family, but I am one and should've realized that I was wasting my time. Now, I feel like a jerk for pushing my own mother to the side...I know this seems way too low for me right now but I just can't feel right about all of it right now. I just wish I could rewind time for a bit and have spent some time with her. I talked to her for a bit tonight but I still feel like I let her down...I guess I should realize that tonight was one night, but tomorrow is a new day....
In other news, I have officially put in my "notice" for Vintage Marketing. My Dad is frustrated with me because he believes that I am "selling myself short" and "running because I got my hand slapped". I really think that my reason for leaving is that both he and his business partner would be better served by someone who had more time and energy to put into the company. That, and I really feel like I haven't done what I can to make there ventures successful; thus, taking away from everything they have put into their lives. I've cost them a lot of time and headaches spent on my problems so I think it's time to move on. While the financial drop may be a bit significant to start, I feel like I can balance it all out with smart planning and saving my money
Song of the day: "Heartless"-The Fray
(PS: Go check the video for this song out! You will not be dissapointed!)
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