Today I felt really challenged by what was preached in church today. A lot of it was focused on how we need to be more outward in our walk with other believers and reaching out to those who are less fortunate than us since God has called us to do so. Now, being in college and working I may not have the money to give a lot financially but I have realized that I have something that can be more valuable than money....time. I work with the "Pro Presenter" team at my church and spend time working with the worship team to help facilitate worship on Sunday mornings. It's only once a month but hey, it's what I can do and I love to do it. Plus, it's a great opportunity to help people connect to what's being sung or the scripture that's being preached. Now, is my job a really glamorous one where I get all the recognition in the world and people love me for it? Nah, but to be honest, I kinda like it that way. I like being the guy that you can depend on for something and that gets it done for you.
Lately God has been putting scripture on my heart during a time full of stress. Lately I've been dealing with exams, papers, and a lot of overworking myself trying to keep up with the game and doing it myself. For those who know me, I'm quite the stubborn person and hate to admit I'm wrong or ask for help (it's my "vice" if you wanna call it that) that prevents me from being completely transparent to those around me who want to be there for me. When most people want to help me, I put up a mask and say, "I'm good, I'm fine!" But in reality, I'm hurting inside because I am so pressured that I feel small and alone in this world with nobody to help me.
God asks us to look at the ravens, flowers, and other objects/animals in Luke 12 and says that if they are provided for, then why should we worry? This has been preached to me for many many many years but never has really hit me till now when I'm "on my own" and trying to make my own way. I have tried many times this semester (and failed usually) to make my own ways to deal with stress and it just turned into me bottling it all up and not getting the help I need. Well, God gave me the usual, "look dummy!" knock on the head with Luke 12 and showed me that He is what will get me through all the rough spots in my life, not the things of this world.
So, this is "blog" usually is me telling what happens in my day and letting yall see what I do everyday. Well, now this will be more of me chronicling my journey into becoming a more wholesome leader for those who look up to me. I took inventory of my life this morning after not being able to sleep last night and realized I wasn't being who I should. I have let the things of this world come into my life and take away from my time and have slipped as a child of Christ. I am an example for those who are younger than me, especially those in the youth group at church. How can I be someone who tells them to live like Christ when I don't do it myself? I can't, plain and simple. So, I'm asking those that may read this blog to see this and pray for me and help me become who I should be in Christ. I'm tired of trying to do it myself and failing every time I try.
Verse of the day: Colossians 3....go read it folks, it's deep stuff that may "stub some toes" but it's as good of a "manual" as you're going to get for Christian living
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